early afternoons alone at home listening to music and eating rice crispy cereal. oh the splendor.

its really hard to believe that it's already halloween again. i guess last halloween seems like a year ago when i think of where i was working and how long my hair was and where i was living, but it just doesnt seem like that much time has passed.

so my native American princess costume is ready (thanks mom!). i don't really know whats so princess about my costume but that's what I'm calling it. i just hope it doesn't rain tonight. i'm hoping to go trick or treating with michele and the babies. I'll take lots of pictures. I'm unsure of what i'm doing after the trick or treating though.i want to do something scary like go to an abandoned building or a graveyard and tell scary stories and eat tons of candy.

i realized that i hardly EVER eat candy anymore. only if someone else is eating it and offers it to me.
but tonight i want a bunchhh

my camera is cool for what it is. but it'd be so sweet to have one of these big old fancy pants ones with the flash attachments and all the jazzy cool stuff


I want a job at a bakery so incredibly much!
i need to turn in applications at these bakery's

lauck's
Charlottes
La Bulangere

we're talkin bout the issues but we're keepin it funky

oh, and on a hilarious side note, a friend of mine sent me this today.

Brett made this fabulous little number due to the fact that i very much dislike my mothers rottweiler baron. mainly because of her farty nature. it didn't really soften my heart but it sure made me laugh.

fun with the neves girls

honestly, its a great thing for a girl to have friends that are girls. unfortunately, i know a very small number who are friendship worthy. Kelah neves is one of those few.

yesterday i was over hanging out with she and her sister shanelle, and we walked over to these stables to go feed the horses some carrots. it was pretty fun. there was one blue eyed horse who was blind and i felt sorry for him. I wonder what use a blind horse would be. we took some funny pictures when we were leaving.

yesterday lila was born! the first baby cabiness to have dark hair!

I took some pictures of the day

so here are my doughnut buddies as mentioned in earlier posts. it's a bit of a shame that I'm always behind the camera and rarely show up in these pictures but you win some you lose some.

last night we all hung out again.

all of us included Bryan on the left, Joe on the right,

ollie, the doggie, and myself behind the camera as always.

last night we were listening to regina Spektor through those large amplifiers by joes head.
I'm a real fan of hers

I'm a heart breaker dream maker love taker don't you mess around with me

what do you do when two boys are trying to win your heart and you can't decide which one would make the better suiter? what if i make the wrong decision? will i be able to go back for the other? i can't just toy with their emotions like that. why is it there was nobody knocking on my door just a few months ago and now everyone decided to show up at the same time

I did pretty well on my final yesterday, tomorrow i find out my grade.

I feel like a slacker with the lack of pictures. I'll post some up later

boy boy boy

kelah always mentions how i say "boy" instead of guy. lately I'm extreamly tired of being single. and i've got options but i'm just so cautous about these things. one of the prospects is a catholic and not that that is a real problem except what if i fall in love and want to marry him? i won't be able to unless he decides to convert. and i know, how weird to thing about marriage before i even date him but i'm just a freak.

and talking about it with kelah, i really want a hippy guy with nasty cool hair. haha. I haven't met any in fresno but possibly in monterey

"I said, honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified

Come on put a little love here in my void, - he said
its all in your head, and I said, sos everything -
But he didnt get it - I thought he was a man
But he was just a little boy" - Fiona Apple, paper bag


I love that playlist i put up here. so many good songs. I hope you enjoy them as much as I

i got my test back this morning, and I got 100% on it. woo! only three of us in the class got a's and i guess most people didn't do well so i feel pretty good about it. now as long as i can handle the practical test on Monday I'll be good

but man i was so nervous about getting back this test! I was the very last person in the class to finish and that's never happened before so i figured i maybe did it wrong. it may have been that I wrote out very complete answers and thats why it took me so long. my paper was covered with essay type answers. I got 100% on the first chapter test we did, but that time I was the very first person to finish the test. how funny

I'm looking up culiary schools in monterey, i may move there in january with a few friends. i just need to save up a little money before that happens. nick and des are always giving me crap about moving out again anyway. it could be really great.

sprinkled or glazed?

i feel i have more of a right to eat at the 24 hour donut house then my clovis friends do. not that i should feel that way, i just found myself annoyed that they were hanging out there the other night when i went with bryan and joe haha.

i expected we'd go there, enjoy our usual donuts, sit at our usual spot, see the usual vagrants, and read some of the short stories out of bagombo snuff box.

instead when we walked in at something after 12 a.m. (our usual time) there were 12 of my friends who live across town hanging out there makin all this noise! they were invading on my donut relaxation time!

i was a little more than happy to see them all march out after someone said "i could totally go for some ramen right about now" and they all cheered in agreement.

anyway. thats all that's new

tomorrow i have my chapter test on mise en place


desi and i are creeps