Ali Boo

the reason I don't update this blog more often is that along with blogger, I update a facebook, live journal, myspace, and twitter account. and I can't bring myself to re post on any for fear someone will happen upon it and then call me out on my unoriginality. or that they'll tell me to delete one of my way too many blogging sites.

but here I am to update. I've been nannying for the past month and a half or so. It is really hard work. I'm sure if I were a mother I would know more of how to handle sticky situations or tantrums that last half of the day, but I'm getting better at it. The two little boys, Peyton and Logan, are at tough ages. 3 and a half years, and six months. Logan, the baby, requires almost all of my attention all of the time. but so does Peyton with his rowdiness. I was super stressed out the first couple of weeks but it's gotten better. I work from 5:30 am to 3:00 pm Tuesday through Friday and then Saturdays I don't work till 7:30. it's nice to get more sleep on Saturday, but I don't get home till 530 usually and am too tired to do anything fun usually. I'm hoping to find something that's a little less demanding of my time, and Michele really wants this job, so I won"t have to worry about abandoning their mother with no options.

I'm dating a Boy named Jay. We met around the middle of July and have been dating ever since. I'm not really sure how it'll pan out later on, but things are pretty nice right now. but then I think that that's a really lame way to look at things. basically, I know I wouldn't marry him. not unless huge huge changes were made. and I'm not really betting on those changes ever happening. he knows what I'm looking for ultimately and that he doesn't actually fit that, and sometimes I feel like we're both just conveniently ignoring the fact. but lately I'm worried that the longer I wait the bigger the mess will be when it all comes to a head. I'm emotionally attached, yes, but not as attached as I might be in a few months. or a year. basically, I don't want to waste my time and emotions on something that I know won't last. but it's nice to not be alone, and I really do like him for a lot of other reasons.

The big Fresno Fair is in town. I ate the most Delicious chocolate hazelnut gelato ever when I went yesterday. Oh! I saw the beach boys! they were so good. I couldn't get over how cute those old men were with their dance moves hahaha. but seriously, that gelato. I'm going back before the fair's over just so I can get another taste.

speaking of sugary foods. I'm putting myself on a diet. not to lose weight necessarily, but more as a preventative action. since I've been working such early and long shifts I've found myself sleep deprived and craving nothing but sugar sugar sugar. and I love sugar so much that I didn't think much of it at first and let myself eat whatever i wanted, but I was still super tired all the time and didn't feel good about it. so I put a stop to the candy intake. anytime I crave junk food I find something substantial for me to eat and get full on that so the sugar cravings will leave me alone. so far it's worked...except I let myself go wild at the fair. because come on, it's the fair. one day of junk food won't kill me. not today at least.